Update

We had a long night. Blythe's heartrate and breathing would slow, and the nurses and respiratory therapists would work on her. It is such a helpless feeling to see your little baby with all of those tubes and all of those sticks. I find myself more scared than I have ever been in my life. There is a feeling of loss of control. The doctor says her chest x-ray continues to look better, and that they may be able to pull her breathing tube (extubate her) in the next couple of days. They also say that we will probably be in the ICU for a few more days, and then we will be on the floor after that.

I just cannot wait to be able to hold her. I miss that and the breastfeeding... Everyone tells me that she can hear me, so I have been talking to her and trying to let her know that I am here. Heath stayed a lot yesterday during the day, and I got to go home and shower, nap, and spend some time with Masie. Masie says, "Baby Blythe booboo, doctor, baby come back, Blythe come back?" So sweet... I keep telling her that Blythe will come back, and so will I- that we will all be together again soon. Then, I find myself feeling scared again and praying that all will be well soon.

Everyone has been so kind... all the calls and emails and offers to help. Heath's mom arrives this morning, and my mom comes next week; Heath's practice has been wonderful, too. He is not expected to see patients or take call. That has taken a little strain off of us. My sisters, also, have been incredible. Kat has been watching Masie, and Garland brought me homemade dinner to the hospital. It tasted so good!!!!

Anyway..they asked me to leave the room so they could do soem procedures, and I hope I can return now. Love to you all-

Marie