Update

It is around 4 a.m., and I just stepped out so they could do another chest x-ray- I actually slept 4 hours, so I feel calmer and more sane. Last night I got so scared again and was too tired to function well. My crying does not help her... but sometimes I feel so powerless.

Her oxygen requirements were greater last night, so they will most likely keep everything the same today. I was hoping they would be weaning her from the breathing tube, but the process can be slow, I am told. The nurses and doctors also tell me that kids sick with RSV vacillate between better and then worse. It is frustrating, though: we will just be moving in the right direction, and then there is a set back. I just feel like she would do better if I could hold her. This morning, her heart rate was high, so I leaned into her bed and put my cheek against hers. Her rate went down. I felt like she knew I was there with her, and that gives me comfort.

Heath's mom got in yesterday, and I think both of us feel relieved to have some more family in town.

Susie, our nurse-midwife who delivered Blythe, and Lauren, a labor and delivery nurse friend from my days at Northside, gathered and brought food, drinks, Advil, and comfy scrubs to the hospital for me last night. It was so nice.

I am going to head back into the unit now. Keep your prayers and good thoughts coming our way!

Love,
Marie